The Turning Point

Roughly a month ago, I went to Aloka Monastery to attend the Birthday celebration of the Abbot there. He gave an inspiring talk as his “wish” — in fact, he didn’t intend to have a celebration. But his disciple who has been with him for many many years insisted and persuaded him to make it happen.

The talk he gave was about turning points in his life. He basically was telling about his past — the times before he became a monk. It was inspiring in a way that if only he chose or make a different decision, he won’t be a monk at this right moment. But for some reason, it also seems like things happened in his life led him to become a monk…..

At the same time, it made me ponder — we all have our turning points — points when we had to make “big” decision that could change the direction of our life. I did have mine; at leaset a couple of times. First, when I was little, reckon I was about 10 years old. I was just a kid, and I didn’t realise that my decision that time could change my life. It was just the beginning of a big journey of my life…. It was the time when I decided to study in a different town away from my family and parents. But I didn’t initiate it if my auntie and her family didn’t persuade me into it. I was someone who was thirsty of knowledge (can you believe it???!). I was so eager to study at school (well even though I wasn’t studious, but I enjoyed learning things)… My hometown is small — and its education is way behind others of bigger town. So my auntie talked me into it by “tempting” me that the education in Medan (the town where I’d moved  to) is way better than of my hometown (it is true, indeed~!)

I was naive.. really naive.. I was tempted by the offer and told my parents that I wanted to stay in Medan to study. I didn’t think of the consequences of being away from my family and parents. I was too ambitious, perhaps… I don’t know why I could make up such decision. I didn’t realise what it could bring into my life…. Honestly, looking back, I regret nothing about that decision. It was a big decision, at least for me, to move away from my family at such a young age. [FYI, in Medan I lived with my relos during that time... so not so bad I suppose] I also have to say, my parents were wise enough to let me stay in Medan. It wasn’t easy for every parents, I believe. My mum called and tried talked me out of it so many times, to ask me whether it was what I  really want… But I was adamant, nothing could change my mind…. But I had my first breakdown (ie reality shock) when my dad left me for home (aka hometown)… I locked myself in a room and cried my heart out after he walked out the door! I knew then it was too late for me to turn back time…. I was also feeling loney and scared in the new environment I was living in…. Well, actually I wasn’t living with few people; in fact the number of people staying in the house was twice as my family! I had my auntie, uncle, and my cousins there… and also my eldest brother. But I wasn’t close with my eldest brother (because he was sent away since he was 7 years old), I was way closer to my 2nd brother.

Living away from parents changed my life from a spoilt daughter to an independent girl. I grew emotionally faster than the rest of my peers. In fact, I believe, some of my friends looked upon me because of my “maturity” and independence. I really feel grateful for this turning point. I would have become a different person if I kept staying with my parents. I think I would be a selfish and spoilt girl if I was growing up in that town. Once in awhile I went back home, and when I saw people who were at my age, I felt more grateful for living away. I don’t mean that the people were bad, but their mindsets were different from mine, and some of them even had less respect to others (ie older people). But things changed now, people change too.. I mean, we all are older and (hopefully) wiser.

There are so many other turning points in my life that if I write them all, it would take pages and pages… So let me leave it to this one. Now, I want to ask you .. have you thought of your turning points in your life that have made you who you are now? I believe everyone has turning points in life, and I think we should be grateful for those turning points (good or bad), because they have shaped us for who we are now….

The Right Attitude

Your perception creates the life you see. It’s your attitude towards life and how you see your life that determines your quality of life.

Everyone is wearing different specs and see the world differently. Some may see the same cup as half full or half empty. It’s called perception. When you perceive something positive, you’ll find it positive and otherwise. So basically with the same situation and event, there may be different reactions we could see from people.

With this current situation, during this financial crisis, I believe everyone feels the impact — directly or indirectly. Some may find this time tough and get discouraged and pessimistic with the future. But some may find opportunities during this time. We all face the same thing: financial crisis, but we have two different reactions: positive and negative.

Sometimes, it’s not so much of what’s happening that matters. But it’s our attitude attending that matters that could be an issue. It’s the phenomenon of life that things change. Things would never stay the same. Five to eight years ago we had the wonderful time financially. We had wonderful growth during previous decade, but now we are declining. Some may think this time is the worst time, but look at ten years ago, twenty years ago… we also had recession! Things are going up and down.

There is nothing wrong with things changing — it’s mainly our mental attitude that we need to tune around. We should have a positive outlook in life. There is always two side of a coin in life. It’s your choice whether you want to see it in a very rosy glasses, or you want to look at it from a gloomy and dull glasses. Again, I can’t emphasise enough, it’s a CHOICE!

It’s very important to focus on the things that we already have — instead of focusing on the things that we haven’t had yet. That is also a “problem” with current condition. During recession, people are sad or stressed because they can’t have what they wanted to have. But, they tend to neglect those things that they already had: their life, family, friends, (little) money/possessions, achievements. Why can’t we channel our energy more onto these things? When we put our attentions to these things, then we will feel our life is wonderful and fullfilling. You will feel like you are rich. So, the secret of being rich is that to acknowledge of what you have already had and cherish those things.

Remember, things are changing — so while you still have what you’re having, cherish it! :)

Earthquake

This morning, I bumped into a friend at the bus stop, and had a quick chat with him. It was the first time I met him there— I’ve been waiting at the same bus stop for the last month at the same time, but surprisingly I saw him there. It was a nice coincidence.

He is a Buddhist too, and I knew him through one of the activities UNIBUDS organised. During our short talk, he told me that he’s been having a terrible gastric problem, and because of that he won’t be able to join a retreat held during the coming long weekend, because all participants are required to uphold Eight Precepts, which includes no meal after mid-day. So he was disappointed.

But his gastric is not a simple gastric. I mean, it’s something to do with the tectonic movement of the earth. Few years ago, he had the same gastric problem in the moment before the tsunami hit Aceh (Indonesia), also during the most recent big earthquake in China…..

Scary but true.. it turned out that his gastric today wasn’t a “normal” gastric problem. I cautiously read the news articles to search for any news related to the earth movement (eg earthquake, tsunami, or other natural disaster). I sadly found what I was looking for: earthquake in Italy. My heart always goes to the victims of earthquakes — becaue my hometown 3 or 4 years ago was hit by a massive earthquake which collapsed one of our properties. It was a gloomy moment for all of us — especially those people who have lost their friends and families. Luckily, there wasn’t anyone hurt in my family — we only lost materials and possessions. But it’s not like in a movie, we didn’t really have a happy ending. Some of my relos — the whole family; my cousin, his wife, and their 2 sons— took their last breathes buried by collapsed ceilings. It was a gloomy moment.. the scars caused weren’t yet healed and cured completely. I could see that sometimes my mum missed her gone friends. Also, I could see how my auntie sometimes has moments when she missed her son and his family. It left a scar, but we lived with it. What’s happened in the past, we can’t erase them. It’s already passed and gone. What we could do now is to live in the now and move on. There is no happiness in grasping on the past.

I wish that the condition in Italy is getting better and the victims can move on…. May all beings be well and happy….

Good Month!

This time I want write something more personal — what has happened in my life. This month has been an overwhelming one to me. January was the month when I felt a lot of hiccups, particularly in career sector, but February brings so many surprises!

I have to admit, I’m a bit supersticious. Once my housemate introduced to me a horoscope website that she found quite accurate. She said that  it’s suggested a good date to do job hunting/application and she applied the job that she’s got on that date! And there are some other details that she found was true as well. So yeah… I stumbled upon the webiste and read the January part — it sounds good; seems like my life is smooth in that month, including career. It said that the early of the moth I will travel, which is true! I went on a road trip from late Dec til early Jan! But the rest was about getting a new home/ property which is not quite relevant to my situation. As usual, it also gives out the “lucky dates” of the month. It says that my career excitement will fall on 22nd and 23rd Jan –> and then it continues with saying that the Jan 9th will bring a surprise. But I didn’t have any excitement on career on both days. But………. I did apply for a position on the 20th Jan (2 days apart from 22nd). And guess what, the position (at IKEA) is offered to me!

Then came February, and I curiously had a read on the website again. This time, to my surprise, has some “connection” to my life. Even though what it says doesn’t translate directly in my life, but I found there is interesting connection. It says that this month my home sector is pretty strong and it suggests that I should buy a property this month. It also says that I would need to relocate because of my job or any other commitment in my life. It also gives some important dates that I found creepily true!

In February, it says that I’d be busy around the week  9th (plus and minus one week). You know what! I was sooooo busy in the week from the 9th to 15th! I didn’t even have time to breathe (of course it’s exaggeration!). Just like January, the month also revolves around property and real estate — not relevant to me. But —— you know what, the job interviews I had in this month were from companies revolving real estae or home! There were 2 from real estate companies (one accepted me, one rejected me) [I rejected the offer of the positon btw].  And another interview is with a furniture company, IKEA! Could you see the link?

It also says that the 9th will be an exciting time for my career — and guess what, my first interview with IKEA was on the 9th! Then it continues saying that 16-17th will be my happiest days in the month! [Not quite true -- but close] I received the feedback of my first interview on 18th and it was a good one: I was invited for a second interview. Another interesting point to note is that it says that the 24th will bring exceptional good news about home and it’s a good time to sign papers. You know what, I received the offer (from IKEA) on the 24th! And I signed the offer on the same day too!

Geez… looking at the links of the incidences, it is hard not to believe that the prediction has something! Anyway, I don’t say that I remembered the dates and jotted them on my diary and did what it says. I just did my own activities without even had those horoscope prediction in my head. Only when everything has happened and I read back, I was shocked to find some connections!

It’s been an overwhelming month to me. I was so down last month because of job hunting, but everything falls into places this month. To be honest, I am LUCKY! Super lucky! I only actively searched for jobs from 12th Jan til 5th Feb! It’s even less than a month! I am super super lucky! I can’t tell how lucky I am…. With current economic situation, my luck is even tripled! According to my friends, in average they got their jobs in 6 months (when the economy was still growing — 2 years ago). SIX MONTHS! Yap…. It only took me less than a month! Geez… I am so grateful. Plus, how many of us could get a full time position before having a permanent residency status?

I believe there is “something” here. I believe it has to do with karma — thanks to UNIBUDS. UNIBUDS provided a very solid ground to do many good deeds, especially as an EXCO when you have more opportunities to practice good karma. Many of my fellow (ex)Excos got their job pretty quickly. I know one who has got a job offer before he graduated! One got a job at first application. One got a job that she really loves and she secured the job not long after she left uni.

I have to say — what I have earned today came from effort as well. It’s not magical — like what the prediction sounds. I put effort too. Meditation has helped me a lot on this journey. I have been meditating and chanting to calm my mind and find peace in my mind. Before I went for the IKEA interviews (which I wanted so badly) I did metta meditation a few minutes before I met the interviewer. For some reason, it did help! The interview was so enjoyable. I guess it comes with the people in IKEA, who are friendly and open.

I know, my challenges haven’t yet ended. In fact, it just begins. But all in all, I am very grateful. Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu.

Personality Test

I’ve been attending a Club at UNSW Careers and Employment, this club basically acts as a supporting buddy for people who are (painstakingly) looking for a job — it is mainly catered for students of UNSW. I really feel grateful for joining the club because the sharing sessions I have there for some reason help me gain my confidence in finding a job. Looking for a job at this current market is really tough, especially someone like me, an international student with no related experience. As you all may know, there are more people are being laid off around the world, including Australia. So I currently compete with those who have years of experience. So compared to those people, I’m tiny — literally tiny.

But I believe that perserverence pays off. If a door is closed, another door will open. Opportunity is always there, as long as we want to open our eyes and grab the moment.

As a part of our preparation for the Club Meeting next week, we are given a link to have an insight on our personality. The link I was given is an adaptation of the official MBTI (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator). Even though the test is less detailed and thorough than the official MBTI, I find it quite accurate. You could give it a go. I did mine, and it turned out that I am someone who is Dominant Introverted Feeling. The test would only take you about 5 minutes. So I suggest you all give it a go. :) May the link help!

Let’s wish and do good things

Hey folks, I wish all of you have a WONDERFUL and MERRY Chinese New Year. I wish I my family surrounds me, but they are thousand miles away from me. But they are always in my heart. As everyone else, I’d prefer celebrating the Chinese New Year with joy and happiness, and with my family around me. Since I’m physically remote from my family, I still could celebrate and spend the day with joy and happiness.

But…. there are some people out there who can’t celebrate the day with joy and happiness. Not because they don’t want to, but the conditions make them hard to spend the day with lots of smile and laughters. I stumbled upon someone’s blog who wrote about a family “tragedy” and mystery. A wife and a mother who has been “sick” with unknown cause for few months. She had several seizures and other symptoms. Doctors have tried so many tests and diagnosa — MRI, CT Scan, blood tests, etc. you name it — but still can’t figure out what’s wrong the lady. I think it’s worse if you see someone who you love and dear so much sick without knowing what causes the symptoms etc. At the same time you want to “cure” her but you can’t since you don’t know how (normally once a doctor found out what is the cause/disease, he’d know what next steps should be taken). More details about the conditions please click this.

So, I hope we all could do something good at least for today — the welcoming day of the Year of Ox. Let’s all pray and wish for her health. Let’s wish that the family could have bright and happy life ahead.

Gong Xi Fa Chai

WISHING EVERYONE A

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

May the Year of Ox would bring you more happiness, joy, and prosperity!!! :)


I want it soooo badly!

Have you ever wanted something badly? Well, guess most of us have had that wanting. I did, and it’s not just one thing, butmany things. Wanting propels us — it makes us moves forward (or perhaps, backward). A strong desire to want something could create either positive or negative effects. It’s positive if you could use it as your motivations, but it’s negative if it pulls you down. All in all, both bring suffering.

Let’s make up a scneario, you have a very burning desire to get a Porche. At the beginning you are so excited and started planning and decided to set aside 20% of your salary for the car. Now, it is closer to the time for you to get a Porche, you only need another month’s salary, and then the Porche would be parked in your garage. But the shiny lucky stars are away from your cosmic sky and you ended up being diagnosed having a cancer. Every dream you have built before collapses. No more Porsche in the equation because you need the money to cover up all the medical bills, because your insurance company won’t cover the full cost of it. And this for sure breaks your heart apart.

As I told you, I have a wanting that I didn’t realise it has eaten me up. But luckily I had a realisation this morning that the wantings are not as important as cherishing and feeling grateful for what I already have. Instead of looking out for something I haven’t had, why don’t I cherish and enjoy what I have had? I believe when everything is right the moment would come.

Lately I’ve been too focused on material side of the world. I want to earn much money, I want to buy this, I want to buy that… the list never ends! But what I don’t realise is that all these wantings suffer me and also people surrounding me (for perhaps helping me to get what I want — providing all the material supports). It was selfish of me to do that!

Now I learn to let go of all those wantings and let the nature takes its course. :) Sadhu, sadhu, sadhu

The Inauguration Speech of 44th President of US, B. Obama

My fellow citizens:

I stand here today humbled by the task before us, grateful for the trust you have bestowed, mindful of the sacrifices borne by our ancestors. I thank President Bush for his service to our nation, as well as the generosity and cooperation he has shown throughout this transition.

Forty-four Americans have now taken the presidential oath. The words have been spoken during rising tides of prosperity and the still waters of peace. Yet, every so often the oath is taken amidst gathering clouds and raging storms. At these moments, America has carried on not simply because of the skill or vision of those in high office, but because We the People have remained faithful to the ideals of our forbearers, and true to our founding documents.

So it has been. So it must be with this generation of Americans.

That we are in the midst of crisis is now well understood. Our nation is at war, against a far-reaching network of violence and hatred. Our economy is badly weakened, a consequence of greed and irresponsibility on the part of some, but also our collective failure to make hard choices and prepare the nation for a new age. Homes have been lost; jobs shed; businesses shuttered. Our health care is too costly; our schools fail too many; and each day brings further evidence that the ways we use energy strengthen our adversaries and threaten our planet.

These are the indicators of crisis, subject to data and statistics. Less measurable but no less profound is a sapping of confidence across our land – a nagging fear that America’s decline is inevitable, and that the next generation must lower its sights.

Today I say to you that the challenges we face are real. They are serious and they are many. They will not be met easily or in a short span of time. But know this, America – they will be met.

On this day, we gather because we have chosen hope over fear, unity of purpose over conflict and discord.

On this day, we come to proclaim an end to the petty grievances and false promises, the recriminations and worn out dogmas, that for far too long have strangled our politics.

We remain a young nation, but in the words of Scripture, the time has come to set aside childish things. The time has come to reaffirm our enduring spirit; to choose our better history; to carry forward that precious gift, that noble idea, passed on from generation to generation: the God-given promise that all are equal, all are free, and all deserve a chance to pursue their full measure of happiness.

In reaffirming the greatness of our nation, we understand that greatness is never a given. It must be earned. Our journey has never been one of short-cuts or settling for less. It has not been the path for the faint-hearted – for those who prefer leisure over work, or seek only the pleasures of riches and fame. Rather, it has been the risk-takers, the doers, the makers of things – some celebrated but more often men and women obscure in their labour, who have carried us up the long, rugged path towards prosperity and freedom.

For us, they packed up their few worldly possessions and travelled across oceans in search of a new life.

For us, they toiled in sweatshops and settled the West; endured the lash of the whip and ploughed the hard earth.

For us, they fought and died, in places like Concord and Gettysburg; Normandy and Khe Sahn.

Time and again these men and women struggled and sacrificed and worked till their hands were raw so that we might live a better life. They saw America as bigger than the sum of our individual ambitions; greater than all the differences of birth or wealth or faction.

This is the journey we continue today. We remain the most prosperous, powerful nation on Earth. Our workers are no less productive than when this crisis began. Our minds are no less inventive, our goods and services no less needed than they were last week or last month or last year. Our capacity remains undiminished. But our time of standing pat, of protecting narrow interests and putting off unpleasant decisions – that time has surely passed. Starting today, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and begin again the work of remaking America.

For everywhere we look, there is work to be done. The state of the economy calls for action, bold and swift, and we will act – not only to create new jobs, but to lay a new foundation for growth. We will build the roads and bridges, the electric grids and digital lines that feed our commerce and bind us together. We will restore science to its rightful place, and wield technology’s wonders to raise health care’s quality and lower its cost. We will harness the sun and the winds and the soil to fuel our cars and run our factories. And we will transform our schools and colleges and universities to meet the demands of a new age. All this we can do. And all this we will do.

Now, there are some who question the scale of our ambitions – who suggest that our system cannot tolerate too many big plans. Their memories are short. For they have forgotten what this country has already done; what free men and women can achieve when imagination is joined to common purpose, and necessity to courage.

What the cynics fail to understand is that the ground has shifted beneath them – that the stale political arguments that have consumed us for so long no longer apply. The question we ask today is not whether our government is too big or too small, but whether it works – whether it helps families find jobs at a decent wage, care they can afford, a retirement that is dignified. Where the answer is yes, we intend to move forward. Where the answer is no, programs will end. And those of us who manage the public’s dollars will be held to account – to spend wisely, reform bad habits, and do our business in the light of day – because only then can we restore the vital trust between a people and their government.

Nor is the question before us whether the market is a force for good or ill. Its power to generate wealth and expand freedom is unmatched, but this crisis has reminded us that without a watchful eye, the market can spin out of control – and that a nation cannot prosper long when it favours only the prosperous. The success of our economy has always depended not just on the size of our Gross Domestic Product, but on the reach of our prosperity; on our ability to extend opportunity to every willing heart – not out of charity, but because it is the surest route to our common good.

As for our common defence, we reject as false the choice between our safety and our ideals. Our Founding Fathers, faced with perils we can scarcely imagine, drafted a charter to assure the rule of law and the rights of man, a charter expanded by the blood of generations. Those ideals still light the world, and we will not give them up for expedience’s sake. And so to all other peoples and governments who are watching today, from the grandest capitals to the small village where my father was born: know that America is a friend of each nation and every man, woman, and child who seeks a future of peace and dignity, and that we are ready to lead once more.

Recall that earlier generations faced down fascism and communism not just with missiles and tanks, but with sturdy alliances and enduring convictions. They understood that our power alone cannot protect us, nor does it entitle us to do as we please. Instead, they knew that our power grows through its prudent use; our security emanates from the justness of our cause, the force of our example, the tempering qualities of humility and restraint.

We are the keepers of this legacy. Guided by these principles once more, we can meet those new threats that demand even greater effort – even greater cooperation and understanding between nations. We will begin to responsibly leave Iraq to its people, and forge a hard-earned peace in Afghanistan. With old friends and former foes, we will work tirelessly to lessen the nuclear threat, and roll back the spectre of a warming planet. We will not apologize for our way of life, nor will we waver in its defence, and for those who seek to advance their aims by inducing terror and slaughtering innocents, we say to you now that our spirit is stronger and cannot be broken; you cannot outlast us, and we will defeat you.

For we know that our patchwork heritage is a strength, not a weakness. We are a nation of Christians and Muslims, Jews and Hindus – and non-believers. We are shaped by every language and culture, drawn from every end of this Earth; and because we have tasted the bitter swill of civil war and segregation, and emerged from that dark chapter stronger and more united, we cannot help but believe that the old hatreds shall someday pass; that the lines of tribe shall soon dissolve; that as the world grows smaller, our common humanity shall reveal itself; and that America must play its role in ushering in a new era of peace.

To the Muslim world, we seek a new way forward, based on mutual interest and mutual respect. To those leaders around the globe who seek to sow conflict, or blame their society’s ills on the West – know that your people will judge you on what you can build, not what you destroy. To those who cling to power through corruption and deceit and the silencing of dissent, know that you are on the wrong side of history; but that we will extend a hand if you are willing to unclench your fist.

To the people of poor nations, we pledge to work alongside you to make your farms flourish and let clean waters flow; to nourish starved bodies and feed hungry minds. And to those nations like ours that enjoy relative plenty, we say we can no longer afford indifference to suffering outside our borders; nor can we consume the world’s resources without regard to effect. For the world has changed, and we must change with it.

As we consider the road that unfolds before us, we remember with humble gratitude those brave Americans who, at this very hour, patrol far-off deserts and distant mountains. They have something to tell us today, just as the fallen heroes who lie in Arlington whisper through the ages. We honour them not only because they are guardians of our liberty, but because they embody the spirit of service; a willingness to find meaning in something greater than themselves. And yet, at this moment – a moment that will define a generation – it is precisely this spirit that must inhabit us all.

For as much as government can do and must do, it is ultimately the faith and determination of the American people upon which this nation relies. It is the kindness to take in a stranger when the levees break, the selflessness of workers who would rather cut their hours than see a friend lose their job which sees us through our darkest hours. It is the firefighter’s courage to storm a stairway filled with smoke, but also a parent’s willingness to nurture a child, that finally decides our fate.

Our challenges may be new. The instruments with which we meet them may be new. But those values upon which our success depends – hard work and honesty, courage and fair play, tolerance and curiosity, loyalty and patriotism – these things are old. These things are true. They have been the quiet force of progress throughout our history. What is demanded then is a return to these truths. What is required of us now is a new era of responsibility – a recognition, on the part of every American, that we have duties to ourselves, our nation, and the world, duties that we do not grudgingly accept but rather seize gladly, firm in the knowledge that there is nothing so satisfying to the spirit, so defining of our character, than giving our all to a difficult task.

This is the price and the promise of citizenship.

This is the source of our confidence – the knowledge that God calls on us to shape an uncertain destiny.

This is the meaning of our liberty and our creed – why men and women and children of every race and every faith can join in celebration across this magnificent mall, and why a man whose father less than sixty years ago might not have been served at a local restaurant can now stand before you to take a most sacred oath.

So let us mark this day with remembrance, of who we are and how far we have travelled. In the year of America’s birth, in the coldest of months, a small band of patriots huddled by dying campfires on the shores of an icy river. The capital was abandoned. The enemy was advancing. The snow was stained with blood. At a moment when the outcome of our revolution was most in doubt, the father of our nation ordered these words be read to the people:

“Let it be told to the future world…that in the depth of winter, when nothing but hope and virtue could survive…that the city and the country, alarmed at one common danger, came forth to meet [it].”

America. In the face of our common dangers, in this winter of our hardship, let us remember these timeless words. With hope and virtue, let us brave once more the icy currents, and endure what storms may come. Let it be said by our children’s children that when we were tested we refused to let this journey end, that we did not turn back nor did we falter; and with eyes fixed on the horizon and God’s grace upon us, we carried forth that great gift of freedom and delivered it safely to future generations.

I learn to smile

SMILE!!!

At this point of my life, I face a new challenge: to get a job! And I want a “proper” job, not something just to earn money. I want to get a professional life. I have to admit, this road is not easy. I have to think and sit in front of computer just to write resumes and cover letters. The effort just to apply ONE job is a lot. I have expected this, I knew that this path won’t be an easy and smooth one. But I’m confident and optimistic that one day I would get what I want. I believe, when it’s time for me to get one, I would have one.

So meantime, despite my desire of getting a job, I learn to smile. Nothing more beautiful than a smile. No matter what I have in my life, whether it’s a success or difficulty, I still want to smile. A smile could bring you more joy, and biologically it’s good for your health! It could improve your immune system.

Sometimes, we take our lives too seriously, until we can’t let any mistake to happen in our life. But, life should be enjoyed right? We should take it lightly, but at the same time, wisely. I want to be able to laugh at my own silliness, my own mistakes, my own stupidity, etc. I want to embrace every negativity with positivity.

So, have you smiled today? If not, smile now! :)