Leaping through a Hurdle

Well, I’m boringly waiting for my file transfer (from my computer to my external hard drive) to finish. It takes ageeeeeesss… *sigh* Thanks to the USB port of my external HD. So, to keep me away from daydreaming, I decide to write this entry.

Life is sometimes full of hurdles or problems. But what is problem or obstacle? Obstacles or problems are again depend on how you perceive or see it. Do you see it as half-full or half-empty? So, sometimes when you think it’s a problem, but if you switch your thought, it may be an opportunity!

However most of us are afraid of failing, that is why we sometimes run away from the issues we are facing. Same thing with procrastination — we keep procrastinating because we are too afraid to do things wrongly, or to get the result below our expectations.

Expectations — we to some extent have them, almost in every part of our lives — study, work, relationships, family, etc. The expectation sometimes is the benchmark of our success. If we pass the expectation then we would feel happy. But attachment deludes itself as an expectation. Attachment follows expectation like the shadow that follows us wherever we go. Since expectations may be unrealistic and inflexible, some of us may fall into the trap of suffering. By letting go of the expectation then we would feel more happy and free!

Expectation is not the bad guy — we can use it as our motivation, not one that can put burden on our shoulder. Expectation again is very subjective, and what you see may not be the same as what others see. However once we have started our engine in our way to reach the island of expectation, we should be able to slowly turn the expectation to hope, one that has least expectation, so we won’t be too attached to the idea of how the result would turn out to.

I hope my rumbling makes sense… hope you guys get it….. 😛

Btw, this week is the Orientation Week at UNSW ~~~ So Sydney-siders, come to UNSW and visit UNIBUDS Stall 😀

Chinese New Year

Gong Xi Fa Chai!

Chinese New Year is around the corner!!! It’s only a few weeks ahead!!!! I remember, when I was little Chinese New Year (CNY) was my favorite day of the year. I even put it before X’mas (indeed, my family doesn’t celebrate X’mas), New Year, and my own Birthday! CNY was the day that I’d been waiting for!!! 😀 I love everything about it: the (new) clothes, clean house, nice FOODS, and most of all: the red pocket!

I got excited when me and my family started to hunt the treasure! Hehehe… please don’t translate that literally, even though I meant it hahhahahha 😛 At the end of the day, me and my brother would count our income and compare it to each other to see who’ve got the most… And I would be very happy if it was me, but sad and envious if it wasn’t me.

But CNY isn’t about red pocket per se. However I see this act of giving red pocket is a good one, it is the time to be generous, especially to those who are dear to you. CNY gives you a gate to open your door to your relos, and it’s time for gathering and catching up with each other. It is a good time to strengthen the relationships between your relos, and Chinese do value family-ship.

However, getting older and (hopefully wiser), I get less excited about the red pocket. Don’t get me wrong — it doesn’t mean that I don’t like it anymore, I still do! Seriously, who doesn’t like money? 😛 I mean, without money how on earth could I survive?! However, the value of the money is not the importance to me. I don’t really care how much the money inside the pocket you give to me, as long as you have the heart to give it to me, well I’d take it with a smile in my heart and thank you. Maybe I’ve changed because now I’m able to earn my money, I’m not as reliant as before.. When I was little, I had to strive to get my Dad buy me something, since my Dad doesn’t like us to spend money too much, esp on things that we don’t really need. I admire that of him.

Honestly, due to this festival, I miss my family more…. especially today when I passed by an oriental shop and looked at the CNY candies and ornaments, I really wished that I was with my family. It’s really an attachment, and I did realise it coming. Feeling is impermanent, as it went away, I let it go 🙂

Lately I feel happier and lighter. I feel more carefree…. Hope y’all feel the same! Be happy! 🙂